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I'm 30 years old and in many ways, still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. Not because I don't know- I've known a number of times. But each time I think I have it figured out, something changes. My life seems to have a very mutable quality. Not much is constant. I'm used to it. Moreso now even than before. To quote Jakob Dylan...man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same.

The most important thing to know about me is probably that my religion is the most significant thing in my life. I'm a Hellenic polytheist heavily devoted to Apollo. I also worship Dionysus and Hermes and have significant interest in a number of the Titans, Protogenoi, assorted celestial daimones and the various deities associated with Delphi, though lately I tend towards the very henotheistic- I'm trying to get away from that. I lean sharply towards the mystical. I write a lot about this in varying degree of filtered posts, though a majority of what I write is completely public. On a related note, I maintain the community [info]cultofapollo (It's pretty slow...er, pretty much dead dead, I should do something about that.) In recent times, I've sworn more than once to trust and follow my gods...this has been leading me to same rather interesting places.

For as long as I can remember, I've experienced periods ranging from a few minutes to a few days of depersonalization. I think this has done a lot to color my thinking as, for a very long time I have had many thoughts about what is actually real or not real and how do you know the difference. Though, out of a strong desire to not sounds like the pretentious love child of clichéd professors of quantum physics and philosophy, I don't really trot those ideas out all that often. And I've come to the conclusion that as long as I can reach out and touch something in front of me, and it feels like I expect it to feel, everything is okay. As such, I do tend to be a very tactile person- for example, it's a rare instance that I walk down a hallway without running my fingers along the wall beside me.

As it stands at this writing, I work in technical support in video and teleconferencing. I've lived in Baltimore for over five years and have gone through more residences and roommates than I care to recall. Currently, I live with a couple of cats and my girlfriend who is at least as much of a devotee of Hermes as I am of Apollo, which often makes life, er, entertaining.

I'm a fairly social person, despite the fact that I have a hard time dealing with a lot of people. I'm not usually particularly patient and there are a lot of things that grate on my last nerve. There exist only a very small handful of people in this world that I've dealt with at any length for whom I've never had a moment where I just wanted to throw them out of my presence for the rest of my life. I've got a bad temper (I like to throw things) but such a long fuse and such self control that only one person outside of my immediate family has ever seen me begin to lose it.

I can be self-contradictory- I'm terrified of needles but I have fifteen earrings, a pierced nostril and a back full of tattoos. I'm a night person but I prefer the long daylight of summer. I'm a voice of rationality and sometimes irrationality and a dreamer with a vocal inner realist.

I am a good cook. I am a little too good at getting inside people's heads- some people find it creepy. I can waltz, knit, fix a computer, speak Spanish, Italian and some French, and start a fire with a single match in a downpour. However, I cannot snap my fingers, ride a bike or properly shuffle a deck of cards.

Tie-dyed techno-hippie Apollonian nerd opinionated commentator disgruntled tech consumer of much coffee thought-provoker shin-kicker Netflix junkie with a serious foreign movie habit wannabe stand-up theologian. C'est moi.
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